Weekend home, Confirmation, & I found my dress!!!

So we finally went home this weekend and it was wonderful! On friday, it was stephanies birthday so I spent it at her house (along iwth both my dogs) and we had a mini party with her mom, Gina, Cara, Steph and myself. Little to sya it was a blast. :) On Saturday morning I finally found my dream wedding dress! It was amazing. I kinda blew my budget but hey, that happens when you are planning a big wedding lol. But I absolutley love it and cant wait until December. My dress will be in during the month of September.

Then, that afternoon, Anrew and i went for our first pre-martial counseling session. It went really well but was very tough! that asked alot of the hard question which I am thankful for and addressed alot of serious issues with us. Although it was hard, Andrew realized even more how much we love each other. <3 Christian counseling is an amazing thing to go thru. I firmly believe that Andrew and I are goign to have a successful marriage if we use the tools that we have been given.

On Sunday, was my confirmation! I felt so proud to become a member of Emmanuel Fort Wayne :) I love my church!!! I had alot of friends and family there to support me as well. After the service, we went to the pastors house for lunch and then went to Stephanie's for her birthday/my confirmation party. Tammy got me a cake and Becca and Rhonda got me flowers:) I was so sad to come back to PA last night but at the same time I am doing better with my homesickness. I am getting ready to go meet with our realtor to look at further homes that we are interested in. I hope it goes well lol.

I will be back in two weeks to the Fort for more wedding stuff and to visit :)

Me.....Homesick???

So I never thought I would never say the words but after re-reading yesterdays post, I have come to the conclusion that yes indeed, i suffer from a large case of homesickness. My hoosier heart is telling me so. I went to look at more homes today and I am hving such a hard time grasping how different they are here on the east coast and how none of them remind me of home.

I spoke with my mother yesterday as well and she knew right off the bat that I was homesick the a big fat "I told you so" came right out of her mouth. lol. If you are family reading this then you know that is the typical thing of my mother to say. Its amazing how she always knows my thoughts before I even tell her and she does know me better than anyone. This is sometimes a good thing, as well as a bad thing. She just doesn't want me to give up everything I worked so hard for in college and she doesn't want me to give up my dream of having a family around my family. It's hard trying to adapt when I know that she misses me. Randall has not taken my moving very well at all. He called me very upset and wished I would come home. It's funny how a 16 year old who thinks he is all grown up becomes a little kid agian when he misses his sister. :)

So what do I do. I hate it when people around me say "oh it will get better", or "you will get used to it". Honestly I have heard it all. lol. I need my time and space and in the meantime, if i need a little taste of home then so be it. Yesterday I realized for the first time that sometimes when I'm sad i go to visit my grandfather's grave and just sit and talk to him or pray and I realized that i can't do that now. It was kind of a security blanket ripped away from me.

So now I sit here trying not to feel sorry for myself because Pittsburgh isn't "that" bad of a city I guess. lol. Who knows. I used to think Indiana was such a boring place and i have friends that still do think that. I hope one day they realize that it si a great place to raise kids and truly does have it's finer points. Like I said, who would of thought I would be homesick for it? Not me that for sure, but boy am I eating my words now. :(

I have my membership confirmation at Emmanuel next Sunday the 26th and I am sooo looking forward to going home. yes i have been home the last 3 weekends in a row and this is my first weekend here in PA, but everytime we went home it was so busy and caotic, and I never got to visit long enough with my friends and family. 2 days goes by so fast.

One thing that has helped me, is my faith. When I start getting down i visit the church.
I love my church back home and i love my Lutheran faith. It is what keeps me going. I have found a few good churches here as well but i want to wait to make a decision on which one to attend after we move. I can't tell you how much I look foward to Sundays now. i am so happy that Andrew and I will be married at Emmanuel. We met with our pastor last sunday and Andrew really likes him. Pastor Tom has also helped me dealing with being so far away.

So I guess that now i just have to keep trying to adjust. (sigh) It's not so easy :(

Sad day :(

So I have been in Pittsburgh for almost 3 weeks now. I love my job. The kids are wonderful and I love teaching the preschool age. I am just having a harder time than I thought I would with being away from home. I miss my mother and brother sooooo much. My friends were my sisters back home and I want nothing more to just be able to go and see them. There is alot going on here right now, with Andrew and I paying for the wedding, looking for a house, and trying to start our lives here in Pittsburgh. I tend to take it all in hour by hour. Hopefully soon it will be day by day, then maybe I will adjust.

I never saw myself leaving Indiana "for good" and the more of a possiblity that seems, the more upset or stressed I get. Don't get me wrong, I like Pittsburgh and I am trying to adjust but it will never be "home" to me. Home is where I had the Christmas Day gatherings at my grandparents home, summers on the lakes, and birthday celebrations with my friends. Andrew means the world to me and that is why I am here. For him. Because he would do the same for me. It's just hard because my heart aches for my family and friends. I guess a five hour drive isn't too bad. lol.

I guess I just needed to vent. I get homesick when I think of all the AMAZING times with my friends and family. I am a lucky girl. I cherish and value them all so much. Home is where the heart is, and my heart was left in Indiana.

Moving!

So it's official...I live in Pittsburgh. I moved here this week to be with Andrew and check out a few job opportunties. We only have until October when his lease on the townhouse is up and I think we coming to face the facts that he has way too good of a job to leave here anytime soon so we are in the process of looking at homes as well. It's tough leaving my friends and family but realistically we do come home alot. At least once a month if not more. Usually more lol. Our dogs Buster and Percy are taking the move well and adjusting. Buster is still so new and young that he never wantes to be left alone lol. I am beginning to really like this city. There are soooo many things to do :) Brittany is coming here tonight to vist! I'm so excited! Welll thats all that's new for now :) <3